Kartini could never understand the gist of the conversation at Bandengan Beach on January 24, 1903. Her dream of studying in Holland with Roekmini was shattered, not because of those opposing her progressive ideas, but surprisingly, from a close friend. He was Abendanon. Nobody else is as shocked as we are..." Kartini wrote to Stella Zeehandelaar.

This was her first major tragedy, which devastated Kartini physically and spiritually. She tried a new