INSIDE the Transito Mataram Asrama (boarding house), Sarim Ahmadi was crying. Together with 250 other Muslims who have embraced the Ahmadiyah belief, Sarim observed the Id and Idul Fitri annual celebrations not with joy but with sadness. What sins have I committed for this to happen to me? she whispered to her friends sitting next to her. Everyone in the room was shedding tears. They were all remembering their bitter experiences of nine months pr