PUPUT, as 35-year-old Joan Patricia Walu Sudjiati Riwu Kaho is more affectionately known, recalled her bitter experience 12 years ago that she said had put her life as if in prison. She was then in a relationship, which turned out to be a protracted ordeal of life with her going through physical, psychological and sexual violence. She seemed to have no option to escape but gave in until it lasted for seven years. When she found herself being preg